We
have fielded this question many times over the past months. Truly caring friends and family that wonder
what, if any, progress has occurred. I
think many assume that we probably have dropped out of this process and probably
don’t want to ask as it is a hard topic sometimes. The answer is, “yes,” we are still adopting,
we are still waiting and we are still confident that God is speaking to us in
that we need to continue to wait. In
talking about this last week, we realized that at this point of being active at
the agency in Georgia, we still haven’t waited as long as we did for
Kylie. That wait was 10 months from the
time our home study was complete. We are
at about nine months right now of being active at the agency domestically. Clearly, with starting internationally in
2013, we have waited longer than nine months, but for our current process we
right now have waited the length of a pregnancy.
One
thing that anyone who has adopted can likely relate to is do you “get ready” or
wait, when it comes to preparedness with a crib, clothes and other baby
items. This time for us we are approved to
adopt a child up to age five. We assume
it will be a baby, but it may not be. We
are prepared, but not prepared all at the same time this time around. Recently we had friends gift us an over-abundance
of clothing which makes us more set in that department then I ever thought imaginable. Being older parents, we also know that you
can get by for awhile without the cool baby items that we deemed completely
necessary when we had Corbin 16 years ago.
J
I
wanted to share again God’s amazing goodness and how He speaks. I often find that I just need to really
listen because He does want to reveal to us if we stop and hear Him. We have had some tough struggles lately
helping Kylie work through her grief and loss in adoption (another blog post
could be written about that piece, and the misnomer that children adopted at
birth will have little to deal with related to their adoption) … this particular
day I was very sad, so sad for her and feeling completely incompetent in our
ability as her parents. I was crying out
to the Lord and actually told Him that “We can’t do this again … it is too hard!” I had decided in that moment while sitting in
my glider that this was it, we have all we can handle and honestly, “I’m out” on
another go-round is what I thought in my head.
Awhile later when I went to check my email I realized we had an email
from the agency in Georgia. These emails are not common as we typically have no
idea when our profile is being shown.
This email was inquiring with us about a situation and asking would we
want to be shown. I was amazed, once
again, that God spoke at the exact time that I was having my melt-down. He has been gracious in allowing us to
receive an answer from Him exactly when we have wondered if we are still to be
pursuing. We were shown, and didn’t end
up being chosen for that situation, but God knew we needed another
confirmation. I am sure He is probably
thinking “when are you going to get it??”
I
have said many times in this process, and continue to say, God’s timing is the
only thing we can count on. We don’t
know what is coming, we don’t know when and we honestly don’t know if it will
ever happen. But the one thing we do know
is that for some reason God still has us waiting. For some reason, God has chosen to supply the
entire remaining financial need for this adoption, and for some reason He
chooses to speak to us in each moment we have of hesitation and doubt. So, there’s my update … not really an update,
but another proclamation that we are still waiting … God continues to have all
the details and our job continues to be obediently waiting on Him.
